even when it hurts
even when its hard
even when it all just falls apart
i will run to you
cause i know that you are
lover of my soul
healer of my scars
- kari jobe
i havent been able to stop playing this song for the past 3 days. the lyrics, the melody… both so perfect in describing how i feel rahh nowssss :)
if i had to sum up how i feel about this…i guess i would say i feel like a proud mom :’)
to be honest…i didnt really do much AHAHAH. everyone is just so talented. so all i was really “hired” to do was be picky about pitch and phrasing. and yes there was improvement but it was only possible because there was a good base of already existing talent. last night it hit me how lucky i am to be surrounded by such talented people. its really encouraging :)
in other thoughts…im really sad that its over. i didnt come in knowing that many people too well and the people that i did know i wasnt that close to. but i came out of it making some really good friends for sure :) i think the idea of coming together to create something is seriously one of the best experiences ever. and you really only get to be part of things like this while we’re in school right? :(
“There is no safe investment. To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket - safe, dark, motionless, airless - it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.” - C.S. Lewis’ The Four Loves
its a disease that is DRIVING every potentially good thing in our generation.
this kony2012 thing, among all others, is great in a way. it IS important that people are being informed about child soldiers. someone told me that TODAY was the first time they had ever heard of it :( sad but i’m still glad they now know! i’m not sure how much i agree with the method kony2012 is advocating or how legit all of these facts from IC (and even people AGAINST this movement) are. but that is beside REAL problem here…
honestly…is this video (and also things against this video) getting people to THINK? i dunno :/ A LOT of times we just hear and stick to what we wanna hear. its like we want to hear good news and hope so badly and we will advocate anything that sounds remotely good without checking the facts and doing research. something sounds good? like it on facebook, share the video on your status, tell everyone to look at it. but how have we become so easily convinced by everything? its pretty scary if you think about it. do you think you really know what is going on from the sources that you are reading? or do you not even question how legitimate the things you are reading are? and when you say that you are advocating for something…what does that mean? you buy a shirt. you give some money. are you telling people about the cause? or are you just following the trend? are you just a nice person?
i’m SO guilty of all these things as well. and i really do need to STOP.
STOP following every seemingly good thing and become an individual who is driven to take a stand, open to being vulnerable, and willing to sacrifice and be broken down for the things i believe in. i mean, if you can’t sacrifice something for it, how much do you really believe in it, right? :/
today was a good day for many, MANY reasons. just finished homework at 4am and i’m tired but staying up was worth it. i still feel so happy hehe but…i’m too tired to write anything substantial. all i wanna say is:
i feel so blessed that
i have SO many amazing friends who are willing to come out to support me (even all the way from SD! seriouslyyy crazy…),
i have been given the privilege to sing and perform my own arrangements with 14 beautiful and talented ladies, and
all this wonderfulness is part of His plan. bigger and greater than what i could have ever imagined for myself :D
gahh its freaking 2:55am and i still havent started my homework cuz i’m working on an arrangement :( BUT SOOO STOKEDDD. dubstep a cappella anyone? WOOHOOO :D this song is going to be SO awesomeee
today was…a pretty crappy day. gah i dont want to complain but i just need to do this today. i REALLY didnt think i would feel this way again for a LONG time. thought i had learned my lesson but i guess i didnt :/ GAHH i dunno. i’m feeling really confused, angry, and sad at the same time. BLEH…
but i’m REALLY excited for dance marathon! WOOOOOHOOOOOOO. i dont really have any costumes but WHATEVS. i’m just SUPER excited to be doing something like this again. its a REALLY great cause and i just miss being involved in things like i was in high school :) we need to be MOVERS and SHAKERS of this world! woooohooooooooo
i dont like to reblog but i LOVE THEM TOGETHER :(
(via fuckyeahhowimetyourmother)
Source: stinson-scherbatsky
AHHH its FINALLY here! the thing that has been CONSUMING my days, thoughts, and energy for the past 3-4 weeks is FINALLY coming to an end TOMORROW (ish)… we still have spring sing auditions, which i am STOKED about because our SONG is absolutely amazing! i honestly dont even care if other people like it :)
but anyway…ahhh i am just…beyond proud of these girls. we honestly dont know each other all that well but its really amazing how this ONE thing can just bring us all together. the power of PASSION is something truly remarkable. sometimes for other groups in high school or even in college i didnt see a REASON for me to really be there other than the fact that i usually go (or in the case of high school, college apps were a lot of the reason). but in RV i feel like theres a REASON for me to be in the group that goes past what i am thinking about logically. everyone is SO important in bringing together this…form of ART. and even though these songs aren’t OUR songs, we have definitely made them into something thats our OWN. something that we can all identify with and feel for. dunno if this is making sense loll.
BUT all that aside, i definitely do want to change the fact that we dont know each other that well; no doubt about it. i really REALLY do love these girls. our improvement over the past few days just musically and choreo-wise is CRAZY. singing well and moving at the same time is REALLY hard. people need to realize that…
also i feel really bad that i really havent been able to hang out with people because of this. “i cant, i have rehearsal” has been my PHRASE for the past three weeks. sighh… please be understanding everyone :(
